Alomar Rafael Pagtalunan

There was a reason why I kept my distance.  I had the mindset that it would benefit us both, but at the same time it was a hindrance.  I left things as they were and I accepted it.  I didn’t try to change anything, and I admit that my weakness was being inconsistent. The motivation was hard to keep alive, it felt as if I was going nowhere most of the time.  I thought that maybe things would’ve changed sooner or later rather than repeating itself all over again.  I thought that maybe we would’ve avoided the mistakes we’ve made before and really work things out..  

You know what, all things considered,  I enjoyed everything we’ve been through.  Even if most of what I can remember is the endless months of distance we’ve created.  A bittersweet kinda feeling.  The only regret I have was not saying or doing the things I should have when I had the chance.  Now we’re at a point that I can’t really explain… idk, I guess all I have left to say is that I really miss being able to be a friend to you.   But atm, I’m too much of a coward to really do anything at all.  I mean, 5-6 months and not one word has been said.  Oh man… where do I start? Ha.